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2025 is off to a bad start. I'm pretty wrecked by the world, which seems at odds with my understanding of "good". It's hard to be motivated to do anything. I have to do stuff anyways. Today, I released the DAYLOG SONGS 2024 album or EP or whatever. Each month I took a phrase from the previous, wrote a short song, and made a video. It started way quicker than it ended- Especially the songs, which were tweaked on and off for about a week sometimes. Here's assorted thoughts: Most of the songs are from negative thoughts! I used these songs to cope, I guess. The saddest song is "what's to say?" I think the dominant mood of the project is Wistful. The first four songs are kind of a lie- I wrote those and made videos for those all in the month of April, I think. I only realized this was a good idea around then. At least I started before halfway through the year! There was no overarching genre or style of music- I did what I felt like, similar to SPLIT WHOLE...

i'm waiting for a scene to render for a new music video that i will release for my album, so i'll write a blog post. i've been recording little videos where i talk about something for my websitre recently- i got the urge out of nowhere the exact instant i was googling munchy boxes. i've been trying to pinpoint exactly why i wanted to do this. after all, this site is nothing but a bunch of crap i've made why would i pollute it even more? see here WELL! in my scramble to justify this as something other than an lampshading* an ego trip i have come up with the following reasons. This is going to be like dissecting a frog and looking at all of its innards in grotesque 4K footage.

 it's been so long since i sat down and wrote a blogpost! it's currently 3:14 as i write this. i'm just going to write a bunch of short things here: unconfidence is generally looked down upon. than being said, i will now confidentially express my unconfidence. hopefully this paradox works in my favor. i've been thinking about my future for a while now. it's hard to see the future. tonight i opened elden ring a bit because the new dlc came out. i didn't get the new dlc. as i was playing it, i came up against a boss. it was at redmane castle i think. i realized that i was not having fun and i had no interest in trying to get better at the game. i've been working on a new game. i made multiple attempts at recording a development video for it but ultimately didn't get anything out of it. there's some sort of gap between the person i think i am and the person that i see on the recordings. it happens to my writings too- almost everything i write seems alie...

Unfortunately, not every musician has access to a whole orchestra. While it would have been nice to make 50 people play the Towne of Gringle soundtrack , I had to settle with virtual instruments. Also I do not have lots of money to throw around so it all had to be free instruments- off the top of my head I think I used Spitfire Labs, FLEX in FL Studio, and Arturia Strings which I got for free when they gave it away one month. I knew I wasn't going to get a perfect sounding orchestra, and it was fine because I wanted a weird uncanny sound to match the tone of the game. I found that there was still a balance that needed to be found, as a lot of the release envelopes on the instruments were really abrupt and needed manual volume adjustment. Managing it was fiddly. I'm reminded of this tonight because I just listened to Your Blues by Destroyer. The orchestral elements sound perfectly imperfect to me. Inorganic yet organic? It almost reminds me of Oneohtrix Point Never's use of ...

After the two months of constant defeat, VIDEOPALOOZA MORE has finished. I like the videos. I did not like the mindset! In the Blissful NOW, what lies ahead?  The Answer- Music and Music Videos, and an Album.  I will be releasing 3 tracks in anticipation for my new album, SPLIT WHOLE. 1. Top of the Trail (Live action video?) 2. I Wonder (Live action video) 3. Walking again (Maybe animated video) I am excited to finally put out this album. It's hung over my head like some sort of imposing-above-head-hanging thing. I believe I've made like 25-30 songs, but the album will probably be 12 songs long.  When I see artists who say they made 10000 songs for an album (e.g. 100 gecs and Caribou) I wonder what the quality of those outtakes are. If we're counting little musical scraps, I have made countless Crimes. In efforts to find things to change, I've listened to my own songs an unbelievable amount of times. So much so it has cut into my normal music listening schedule. I am pr...

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